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Please say you can relate! I have been SO frustrated with Ava for the past week or so. I feel like a bad mom...when I wake her up in the mornings, she wants to test her limits ("I don't want to wear that...you can't make me...I don't want to go, I want to stay home..."). So I feel like we get off to a bad start. Then, I leave her at daycare for 10 hours, and when I pick her up she yells and screams and cries at me for every little thing ("I don't want to sit in my car seat...Molly is looking at me...I want to go to McDonald's"). I know that these are hard times of the day for her, she is a bear when she is tired or hungry...but it doesn't seem to end there...over the weekend, she exploded in tears and screams because I asked her to pick up 4 of the toys that she had left out on the floor. We just seem to be butting heads right now. I feel like the times when she is most susceptible to melting down, is the same time that I am, in the morning...when I feel like we need to rush to get out of the house on time, and after I have had a long day at work and battled traffic to make it to daycare on time. She is three, so it is appropriate for her to throw a fit when her basic needs aren't being met...but what about me? I just want to plug my ears and yell "LA LA LA LA LA" when she starts melting down...but I can't. I have to be the adult.

As frustrated as I have been the past week, she always finds a way to remind me of the many reasons I love her and could never live without her! At the store yesterday she started singing (very loudly) "Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so" I bet God knows my frustration all too well. I AM like a three year old! I push and push, but He never stoops to battle me...His patience stretches beyond my understanding. Praise God!